You've been waiting here for me,
though आप don't push me at all.
आप know exactly what I need.
But आप won't shove it down my throat.

You've been on my mind all दिन long.
I pretend You're not even there,
because I know my thoughts are wrong.
But I'll just keep pretending anyway.

When I finally call out to You
आप come and tell me everything's okay.
आप take time to make me new
though आप know I'll just push आप away.

I doubt I'll ever learn
This world's too big for me on my own.
Each time I try I just get burned.
But You're the One who will heal my wounds.

Just stop answering my calls
so that I will fall on my face.
So I can't get through it all
and I'll cry out for Your Grace.

So that I feel like You're gone
and You're never coming back.
So I'll know that I'm wrong
and beg for आप to come back.

I can't keep hurting आप like this
but I just can't stop myself from leaving.
Would आप grant this one wish
and give me the strength to keep believing.

If I don't deserve You
why are आप the one to come to me first?
You've been there forever
since the moment of my birth.

But I went down the wrong way
and now just can't seem to adjust.
I'm shattered with dismay
and don't know who to trust.

I tell आप I'm sorry again and again
But then I turn back around and do it again.
आप know I'm lying when I tell आप I'll stay
But then आप प्यार me anyway.
Are आप as tired of me as I am of myself?
या do आप प्यार me as much as everyone else?
Do आप know in fact You're wrong
for loving someone whose already gone.
I need You, I need You.
But again I'll leave You.
Just turn away from me
and don't ever look back....

He coaxes me in with His tender voice.
His arms outstretched to capture me again.
Ready to catch me when I fall,
like a newborn child learning to walk.
I take one step further, closer to Him.
I tremble but He smiles as big as He could.
He says, "Come on, child. You're doing so good.
You're almost there."