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osalie and Renesmee went hunting together today, alone. It was hard to pry Nessie away from Jacob, but Rosalie… well, has a way with words. She can leave even Jacob speechless, sometimes. Her प्यार for Nessie is immeasurable, though. Rosalie can fill some of the void that plagues her existence द्वारा having Nessie around. The main reason Rosalie dislikes being what we are… vampires, is because she will never be able to birth her own child, be a mother. For that, she has an excessive amount of resentment towards me. I managed to enter this ceaseless life with a child. I managed to become an immortal to live forever with the प्यार of my life, Edward, and still have a child. She wasn’t so lucky. I get that, and that’s why it makes me happy to see Rosalie light up when she’s around Renesmee. Sometimes, though, I feel like it’s a tug of war between Jacob and Rosalie. The thing is, Rosalie will face disappointment again one दिन once Nessie reaches her full maturity, when she’s seven, like Nahuel, the half human half vampire Alice found to prove to the Volturi that Renesmee wouldn’t hinder या harm our kind in any way.
Like Nahuel, Renesmee will look and think like a fully mature girl when she is just seven years old. Her mental and physical growth rate is vastly accelerated. So, if Renesmee chooses to marry Jacob once she reaches full maturity, that’s her choice. Of course, we’d be gone from Forks द्वारा that time, too. With Renesmee’s almost painfully obvious growth rate, we should leave Forks soon, actually. However, that will be a whole other diary entry.
Right now, Rosalie is being quite obvious about her plan to prevent Nessie from marrying Jacob, one day. She’s already expressed that she doesn’t believe it’s right, for a werewolf and half-vampire to spend the rest of their lives together. We are each others natural enemies. I get that. This is different, though. Jacob can’t help the fact that he has imprinted on Nessie. All he knows is that he needs her in his life for as long as he lives. He would do anything for her, too. If Rosalie had it her way, though, Renesmee would marry a vampire, या another half human half vampire.
As Renesmee grows, which is seemingly everyday, Rosalie is getting और and और possessive of her. She spends और time with her now than ever, and conveniently tries to take her away when she’s with Jacob. Edward read Rosalie’s thoughts, too. She’s been thinking a lot about Nahuel, and how he would be perfect for Nessie. She even asked Alice some सवालों about him the other day. She wants to find him again in a couple of years, when Nessie is और mature, and spend some time getting to know him. Like I said, her plan to keep Jacob from Marrying Renesmee is obvious. The hard part is keeping Rosalie’s plot a secret from Jacob. Once he imprinted on Nessie, that automatically meant he would do everything in his power to be near her… anything. If Jacob discovered Rosalie’s intention, he could quite possibly try to destroy her, to keep her from interfering with him and Renesmee.
Lately, Edward has been hissing at Rosalie, और than usual. He wants her to know he will do whatever it takes to ensure Nessie ends up with who she decides. All we want for her is to be happy. Right now, she’s happiest when Jacob is around. Her cheeks plump up into a rosy blush, her smile grows larger than we thought possible, making her eyes sparkle and when she touches her tiny hand to my cheek I can see that her thoughts are almost completely consumed द्वारा Jacob. She tells us, too. She talks mostly about Jacob, and is otherwise quite shy. I wonder where she got that from. Most importantly, when Jacob isn’t around, she wishes he was. He wishes he was, too. His thoughts are exhaustively about Nessie. Edward used to constantly listen to Jacob’s thoughts, making sure he didn’t have any undesirable future intentions. Jacob’s thoughts are always pure, though. He genuinely just wants and needs to be with Renesmee. Edward and I both trust him, too.
For now, we’re going to keep a close eye on Rosalie and make sure she doesn’t succeed at keeping Nessie and Jacob apart. Nessie did come from Edward and I, though, so I can trust that once she’s matured, she’ll make her own decisions, like I did. No matter what they happen to be.
Will Write Again Soon
-Bella
