omg so it's that time of the साल लोल when i pour out my soul for the public world to see haha but it's not for their eyes, it's for yours of course so i don't even care. but yeah. i always get excited लेखन लेखाए for आप because my sense of आप and how much i प्यार आप and why i प्यार आप always manages to shine through like even if i'm going through a writer's block which i wouldn't say i'm in right now but i am at the point where i haven't written anything in months now या even edited that much, so i'm pretty rusty. but anyway. yeah. so somehow i'm always able to write letters and लेखाए and everything in between for you, because the floods of my दिल never stop pouring. आप can't build a dam for it, for what material would आप use to stop love? in it's rawest, purest and most sincere form, आप can't truly stop love. it always wins, even if it must lose many many times, it always wins. it's really a blessing that i'm always able to write आप something cause then when i sit down in order to pen a letter या whatever else, i realize i haven't लॉस्ट the touch, आप know? i still have it, though it remains stagnant for some time and unused, still it sits silently waiting. it is a gift. and it was a gift i always wanted to use for good. from the beginning. maybe to redeem myself, i'm not really sure. maybe because i hate seeing gifts go to utter waste and i knew that even if i destroyed my life i had created something beautiful; i really couldn't tell आप but i do know it's a gift. so the best way i can use it is for you. because you're my other gift.
people have कहा it again and again forever: what would i do without you? it's beyond cliche but we know how true it is for us. what would we do without each other, in fact? i really don't know. anytime i think about it, i only come up with bad and with us being worse off than we were in the beginning. separating us would literally be separating souls. that's the worst thing god या one of his creature's could do, and i don't mean to sound overdramatic but i'm trying to think of worse and other than what we could do to ourselves which is falling out या dying lol, that's hands down the worst thing. we're each other's homes and therefore lifelines. if we didn't have each other, our souls would be homeless. in fact, no one could really acheive seperating us completely because i know that even in death, we would be attached. so what could life possibly do?
आप and me, we've encountered some nasty bitches and fake फ्रेंड्स and everything in between. and we've encountered them together. i think i could go through losing a friend, cancer, a horrible mental illness या physical illness, i think i could go through anything आप could name, anything आप could possibly think of with you. as long as i had आप द्वारा my side, i'd be okay because आप are my okay.
i just noticed my nails were ruined lol, greaaaatttt. anyway. why do i mention the most unimportant things? i swear i'd be लॉस्ट without you. who would i कुतिया, मतलबी to, ramble to, laugh with, be sappy with? literally no one. no one could fill your shoes या take your place, so it's honestly a ridiculous insecurity to have. you're my you. no one could give me आप but y o u. i am convinced that we are one in a hundred million. our unique souls, mine with it's brazenness, recklessness, my lies and my beating दिल that feels too heavy in my chest, my poetic soul from a millennia पूर्व and आप with your honesty, your brilliant way of thinking through everything and feeling g everything, the beauty आप place on the world, how आप define "too much", how life manifests itself inside आप at the oddest of times -- us, we don't exist. especially not together. aries and cancers aren't usually pinned together anyway, for they clash too much. but we don't. we balance every aspect; when आप give a little, i give a lot; when आप feel too little, i feel too much; when i think too little, आप think enough. it is perfect. it is truly yin and yang.
so this day, और than most days i am thankful for you. i'll give आप all my 8:14s of my entire lifetime if आप could feel how i प्यार आप and how i need आप in my life. take my words right now, for they're all i have but i think they're enough for you. we feel each other's souls and hearts in every word we pen, and i hope आप feel mine beating, bloody, bruised and working for you.
i owe आप my life and my reason for living. thank आप so much.
happy birthday to my most प्रिय person in the entire world. thank आप trusting your दिल with me and for your soul. i will treasure it however long as our infinity allows.
people have कहा it again and again forever: what would i do without you? it's beyond cliche but we know how true it is for us. what would we do without each other, in fact? i really don't know. anytime i think about it, i only come up with bad and with us being worse off than we were in the beginning. separating us would literally be separating souls. that's the worst thing god या one of his creature's could do, and i don't mean to sound overdramatic but i'm trying to think of worse and other than what we could do to ourselves which is falling out या dying lol, that's hands down the worst thing. we're each other's homes and therefore lifelines. if we didn't have each other, our souls would be homeless. in fact, no one could really acheive seperating us completely because i know that even in death, we would be attached. so what could life possibly do?
आप and me, we've encountered some nasty bitches and fake फ्रेंड्स and everything in between. and we've encountered them together. i think i could go through losing a friend, cancer, a horrible mental illness या physical illness, i think i could go through anything आप could name, anything आप could possibly think of with you. as long as i had आप द्वारा my side, i'd be okay because आप are my okay.
i just noticed my nails were ruined lol, greaaaatttt. anyway. why do i mention the most unimportant things? i swear i'd be लॉस्ट without you. who would i कुतिया, मतलबी to, ramble to, laugh with, be sappy with? literally no one. no one could fill your shoes या take your place, so it's honestly a ridiculous insecurity to have. you're my you. no one could give me आप but y o u. i am convinced that we are one in a hundred million. our unique souls, mine with it's brazenness, recklessness, my lies and my beating दिल that feels too heavy in my chest, my poetic soul from a millennia पूर्व and आप with your honesty, your brilliant way of thinking through everything and feeling g everything, the beauty आप place on the world, how आप define "too much", how life manifests itself inside आप at the oddest of times -- us, we don't exist. especially not together. aries and cancers aren't usually pinned together anyway, for they clash too much. but we don't. we balance every aspect; when आप give a little, i give a lot; when आप feel too little, i feel too much; when i think too little, आप think enough. it is perfect. it is truly yin and yang.
so this day, और than most days i am thankful for you. i'll give आप all my 8:14s of my entire lifetime if आप could feel how i प्यार आप and how i need आप in my life. take my words right now, for they're all i have but i think they're enough for you. we feel each other's souls and hearts in every word we pen, and i hope आप feel mine beating, bloody, bruised and working for you.
i owe आप my life and my reason for living. thank आप so much.
happy birthday to my most प्रिय person in the entire world. thank आप trusting your दिल with me and for your soul. i will treasure it however long as our infinity allows.