Landon Carter

***Randy's POV***

Randy sees आप go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The तस्वीरें of आप crying your दिल out, shouting that आप wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce आप husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's फ्रेंड्स were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor कहा it was ok. He sees आप sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits अगला to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for आप द्वारा breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair अगला to your bed. आप look around and आप realize your in a hospital. आप can't remember anything that happened to आप before except the dizziness आप felt back at Randy's house. आप smile...

I प्यार you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that आप are my one and only last love.

The whole day, आप and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. आप guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and आप hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's आप again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your बिस्तर and gets under your covers. आप follow right after and आप किस him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and आप guys all go back to school...

Shawn: हे Taylor. आप think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. आप should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: आप should let go of Jamie. I mean आप haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know आप like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my प्यार really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this प्यार to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives आप a dirty look. आप get a bad feeling and she pushes आप and says:

Lauren: Are आप a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First आप like him, then आप break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are आप trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. आप कहा आप were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, आप wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. आप twitch and आप quickly yet gently हटाइए Randy's hands off your waist. आप leave the सोफ़ा, सोफे and आप run to the bathroom and आप head to the toilet. आप just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, आप look and आप see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your बिस्तर and आप plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. आप look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give आप what आप deserve.

Brad is about to पंच Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: हे हे hey!! What the hell is wrong with आप Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE आप try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though आप might never be द्वारा my side again, I will never forget you. आप won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come द्वारा me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt द्वारा आप again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? आप always cared for them और than आप did for me या for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least आप could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and आप sit in the back सीट of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like आप Jamie. Not just as a friend but और than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, आप just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want आप to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want आप to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want आप to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. आप hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't आप understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, या can it be me in the अगला life time? Even if आप promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway अगला to Shawn's car and आप see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees आप and Randy and आप get out of the car with Randy. आप quickly get Angie and आप walk अगला to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to आप and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole महीना passed द्वारा and आप and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. आप and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and आप spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, या hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do आप wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days आप going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so आप won't be bored....